The tougher days of parenting a teen adopted from foster care

Updated: 2020 – Happily our family is doing much better 🙂 It’s a journey and it’s a blessing to see how far we’ve come!

This is my story of the every day, behind closed doors, side of adoption – adopting a foster kid who didn’t want to be adopted is hard.

I hold onto my vision of a peaceful thriving family and utilize my tools to get us through.

Here’s my video opening up on a tough evening

Most days I still feel like I’m an outsider in my own family. This angry teen made me a parent yet stole my motherhood.

Most of the time I receive commendation for adopting three siblings from the foster care system. Sometimes I’m embarrassed telling people I am a parent of a 15-year-old and then their next question is, “What, how old are you?!” Ugh, this one of the only times I don’t like looking young because then I feel obligated to add, “I adopted her”  and it opens up more than I want to share. I don’t like talking about it, especially in front of my daughter Mandi because her adoption is still a raw spot in our lives.

I made the decision over 5 years ago to welcome three siblings into my forever home

My ex and I took in Jon (5) and Kayla (2) in July 2012. A few weeks later I got the call their sister Mandi had been taken away from her maternal grandmother – would we take her? She’s the sweetest, kindest girl with a fiery temper. I’ve invested so much time with her and we’ve made progress. Though the harsh reality at the end of the day is …

I feel like we’ll never be a real family

I’ve failed that relationship time and again with Mandi because the bottom line is she doesn’t want to be with me. She still views me as a foster mom and makes it very clear to people I’m not her mom. I had this fantasy of having a loving close family and instead, I have a giant thorn in my garden. Right now I’m missing my younger daughter’s sleepover in the living room because Mandi is parked out there. It’s just easier to be away from her and I know I hide from her a lot.

Not only physically avoiding her, I also hide my true self and tiptoe around my own home

She criticizes what I wear, how I talk, insults my music and if I’m happily whistling she demands I stop from inside her room. Geez! As I’m writing this I sound like a victim and that’s not what I want to create. Part of this is parenting a teenager, yet in my reality, there’s no loving foundation to hold us together. She tattles on me to her biological family if she’s unhappy and her bio mom even called the cops on me one time when I took away her phone. Are you kidding me?? It hardly feels like I’m the parent here and it’s so frustrating.

How can I create the family life I want now?

Visualization…and being extremely mindful of how I talk about the situation, what I want and how I feel. I utitilize my tools of affirmations and focusing more on what I want than what is driving me crazy right now. Almost always when once I consciously recognize my desire to switch from a negative feeling to a positive feeling about an issue, this starts to shift things!

Remember Lauren, act in kindness on your journey and master your relationship with yourself, others, and the world.

It is so difficult to control other people’s behavior so how can I control myself better? I strive to respond with love and need to start seeing myself being more loving. I want more love and better experiences with my adopted family, so I need to be more of that to get more! And oh it’s hard! Being loving instead sometimes feels like I’m being weak and giving into negative behaviors.

What do I want going forward?

First I wish Mandi and I had a strong loving relationship, second that we had a civil relationship and lastly we have a non-existent relationship. And that third option tears me apart, it feels so sad to think of losing her.  Currently, the situation feels like eggshells – usually tense though alright until something pops up. My ex doesn’t want to deal with Mandi anymore so it feels like it’s up to me. I am capable of it, yet dealing with this difficult part on my own also takes so much away from being the best mom I can be to Mandi and Kayla. Use gratitude to change the situation.

Be grateful for Mandi as a wonderful tool to practice kindness every day!

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